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So 3 days ago I posted an entry talking about Hope and Despair (which you can hereHope and Despair (ignore)) to which TornadoWeirdo replied with a quote from the bible. I replied: "I'm an atheist, I don't believe in that Jesus mumbo jumbo."

They replied, and I quote: "If you repent and turn to Jesus, you will be saved. Otherwise prepare for the wrath of God on the whole earth, which is coming soon."

And you know what? I'm not even going to rant as I wanted to. I don't have the muse or energy but I'm saying this: if you're religious and think I need to REPENT because I'm an atheist, lose all contact with me. If you believe in God, or "Gods" in general don't fucking talk to me. I'm sick and tired of you religious people, Christians especially.


If you even try to explain to me that "not all religious people are like that" your ass will be blocked.
If you try to make me think from a different perspective when I already know the different perspectives you're getting blocked.
If you try to say anything relating to how you think I'm the rude one you will be blocked.

Everybody's just gonna catch a block today lmao.
Light and dark clash like hope and despair.
The struggle betwixt good and bad like Yin and Yang.
One can either surround themselves who radiate hope or drown in the deepest depths in the sea of despair.
The two tie together like sanity and insanity.
Normality and abnormality.
And hope and despair in itself.

What exactly it like to have or feel hope? It's to wake up every day with a twinkle in your eye and look forward to living another moment. It's to proceed with a motivation. To have determination and be without despair.

Imagine dancing in the bright lights of hope.
Positivity neighboring you.
Picture having a smile that could illuminate even the darkest of places.
Envision harboring what some want most.
Hope.

What's it like to have or feel despair? It's waking up every day wishing you hadn't lived the last. It's to have circles under your eyes from the night before due to lack of sleep. The lack of motivation and not having the resilience to fight despair. It's wanting to die almost every second of the day. 

Close your eyes and clear your mind.
Helplessly, let the waves of despair clash with the tides of hope.
Feel the bitterness sinking in.
Notice the dimness growing.
Embellish yourself in despair's everlasting existence.

Hope slips through your fingers like sand.
Dreams crumbling into nothing.
Your entire world comes to a crashing halt as everything around you seems to freeze.
Trying to speak but the words won't come out.
You're alive but you're not living.

What correlation does hope and despair have to sanity and insanity?
Looking at the various factors betwixt the two could notably show some sufficient evidence that indeed there's comparison.
In the battle of life or death will you choose hope or despair?
Your reasons are limited to your cognitive functions.
Nagito's fingertips smoothly slid along the surface of his bruised flesh; red and purple marks littering his abnormally pale skin. Nagito sat unaccompanied in a hospital bed, buried beneath the crisp and clean white sheets. Tending to his self inflicted, an unnerving smile lay unfazed upon his countenance as you entered.

    "You can't keep doing this." you said with a sigh. Nagito winced in pain at the slight annoyance tied to your voice but laughed nonetheless. "I'm sorry," he quickly apologized dabbing away at the discoloration repainting his skin. "Sometimes I just get so anxious I don't know what else to do?"

    A disbelieving huff elicits your tiers and (color eyes) looking into verdant orbs, you scowl. "You mean to tell me you get so anxious that you HURT yourself? I don't believe it." you grumble. A twitch in Nagito's lips faltered his smile and a small frown crossed his face. "Well that's kind of rude," he whined. "after all, I was concerned about you, (name)."

    A brief moment of silence then passes between you two.

Breaking the silence was yet another sigh, one resonating from you. "I'm sorry." you say lowly avoiding eye contact. It was Nagito's turn to huff. "Don't apologize," he says flashing you a welcoming smile. "it's not your fault I'm a pathetic piece of trash. I'm thankful that you're trying to help me though."

    "If I don't then who will?" you inquired kneeling down at the end of his bed. Nagito just stared smiling wide as you snatched the covers from his lower half, tending to the scratches and scrapes embedded in his frail brawn. "And you are NOT a piece of trash. Don't say that."

    "B-but it's-ngh! True?" he'd grunt. You gently placed the rag to Nagito's knee and swabbed at a gash. "Try not to move your leg so much," you said carefully grabbing his appendage firmly. "and no, it's not." you add. A groan wa heard from Nagito and you raised an eyebrow.

    "Is there a problem?" you snort. He shakes his head. "No, there's not. I just...wanted to say thank you. Nobody's ever done this for me and I feel special that someone like you, the ultimate (talent) would help someone like me, a pathetic piece of-"

"Don't repeat that." you hissed instantaneously clapping a hand over his mouth. "You are not a piece of trash. And if you are, you're my piece of trash." you commented before kissing him quickly. A crimson red dusts Nagito's cheeks and he blushed deeply. For a moment, the both of you share a short lived laugh and you continue tending to his wounds.

The end
Nagito Komaeda x reader - Anxiety
I've been Danganronpa trash for the longest and yes, of course like most of the fandom, I'm in love with Nagito Komaeda. This is kinda shitty and I have to edit this because I'm in college and it's rushed but hey, take it for now.
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As some of you may noticed, the names of the admin to this account changes almost constantly. Those specific names being Kenny, Toni and Zea/Jack. I, Jack, am posting this journal to to clear the lingering confusion. I know some people have messaged me or Toni looking for Kenny, vice versa, or someone looking for a specific one of us and got confused, but that's because this account has been under constant new management. Kenny originally owned this account and at some point, Toni too. No, these are not alternate personalities if anybody's thinking that but they're in fact my brothers. 

Toni is Black and Dutch and Kenny is Black and Irish like me. As of last year in October 2015, I, Zea (aka Josh/Jack/Waylon/etc) took over the account. There are times where Kenny and Toni log on (and I think a few of you might know judging by the content posted) but as of now this is the account of Jack. If you still need help differentiating us (appearance and personality wise), here's a few things about us.

Toni is Black and Dutch. He speaks English, Dutch, Irish and Danish. He was born in Utrecht, the Netherlands. Currently, he lives in Copenhagen Denmark with his girlfriend. Toni is pansexual and genderfluid. Toni suffers from anxiety and paranoia. 

Kenny is Black and Irish. He speaks English, German and Irish. Kenny moved and currently stays in Berlin Germany, but is with me and the rest of our family here in Edinburgh. Kenny is bisexual and trans. Kenny suffers with depression, anxiety and BPD/MPD (much like me).

Much like Kenny, I'm Black and Irish. I speak English, German, Irish, Dutch and Italian. I was born in Kildare Ireland but currently living in Scotland with my son and husband. I'm panromantic grey-asexual and identify as demiboy. I suffer with/from depression, anxiety, BPD, MPD, self harm and SI. 

I hope this clears up the confusion a little.
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So 3 days ago I posted an entry talking about Hope and Despair (which you can hereHope and Despair (ignore)) to which TornadoWeirdo replied with a quote from the bible. I replied: "I'm an atheist, I don't believe in that Jesus mumbo jumbo."

They replied, and I quote: "If you repent and turn to Jesus, you will be saved. Otherwise prepare for the wrath of God on the whole earth, which is coming soon."

And you know what? I'm not even going to rant as I wanted to. I don't have the muse or energy but I'm saying this: if you're religious and think I need to REPENT because I'm an atheist, lose all contact with me. If you believe in God, or "Gods" in general don't fucking talk to me. I'm sick and tired of you religious people, Christians especially.


If you even try to explain to me that "not all religious people are like that" your ass will be blocked.
If you try to make me think from a different perspective when I already know the different perspectives you're getting blocked.
If you try to say anything relating to how you think I'm the rude one you will be blocked.

Everybody's just gonna catch a block today lmao.

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✦ 【 Ben 】✦
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♚ hope & despair ♚

✪ TWEWY, KH, Outlast, Danganronpa & Owari No Seraph trash ✪ Gemini ✪ ENTP

6.29.2013 ♡ | 1.12.2014 ❤︎ | 11.03.15 <3

❝ I am who I am. You know i'll bend the truth and break it too. I am who I am. You know I care for you but not enough to let you go. ❞ ♡

I'm going to hell when I die.
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Hotheart123 Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2016  Student Digital Artist
Gave you a llama to help you in this tragic times
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PrussiaDesu Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you. I sincerely appreciate it. 
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Hotheart123 Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2016  Student Digital Artist
YW :)
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PrussiaDesu Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I gave you a llama badge back
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Danny-the-Hedghog Featured By Owner Edited Jul 13, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
OMGsqueeAPH Prussia tackle hug Bro hug  Thankies for the +watch  senpai!!!Love in the Air ~hug lifes' completehug 
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PrussiaDesu Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
You're much welcomed frau, kesesesese~
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Danny-the-Hedghog Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Squee!!! APH HRE Squee APH HRE Squee APH HRE Squee 
:happybounce: :happybounce: :happybounce:  veee~Italy 
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Danny-the-Hedghog Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
 HORRY SHEETU YOU LOVE HETALIA TOO?  YAY America (The Hero) [V2] APH America: Sparkle Glasses YOUNorth Italy Talking Icon  HAVE MY FRIENDSHIP FOREVERItaly (Free Hug) [V2]  ^^Emoji32 Emoji02 Emoji06 Emoji08 
Deserves a +WatchEmoji06 Emoji08
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PrussiaDesu Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA yeah i am actually not into hetalia anymore but i'll still take that friendship and watch though
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Danny-the-Hedghog Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
AwwwItaly (Joy) [V1]  Really??? welp, ok thenItaly (Finds a crab) [V1]  ^^ also love your Hetalia x Reader havent actually read them but im planning to print them before i do
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